I'm going to get a big happy dog like this

to lay with me by the fireplace

sometimes we will take walks together

and take baths when we get home

soon i'll be packing my things

crossing the golden gate

traveling back in time

across the country...to the place i was born

the city by the bay

.......................same deep, mesmerizingly thought-provoking songs.


But this time - fullness.

is the sadness really to disappear?

i feel happiness.

my heart feels a physical strength.....a fullness of life

silly, but true, cliche......there is a single tear coming down my face. trying to outlast the song, i'm starting to think maybe - -  -   -    -     -      -       -        -         -

all i can hope is that you continue to take my breath away.

there you are sleeping in the room above my head and i can't help but peak in to kiss you on the cheek, bashful with lust.



they say love is real, the love is real.

I am tired of everything being so purposeful.

I WANT to look around and feel overwhelmed with emotion. I WANT to see a corner of a wall and stare into the paint chip while i listen to the note of a deeply overwhelming song and fall into it with all of my body.

What does it take to be continuously moved?

What lifestyle do I need to cultivate to capture that?

All i ever have is questions.

sit and listen to me, it's all i want in life.

an audience.

Great peace and Sweet blood in the sky

Lunar eclipse in Gemini is creating a magnificent pull between the sun and moon, leaving us in the middle. I feel the sigh of relief, the build up since july has finally let go.

Our relationship took a hit so hard, I thought it was done.

I

really

thought....

I don't know what I thought.

I'm sorry.

____________________

Can we start again?

.................hanging my head in shame, I am humbled and human.

Passion overcame me, the creative drive has taken me over and

I will not let go now. We are taking a big breath like the visual

of a living breathing human chest seen from the side, vital and

you are the one who gives me air. I snapped in half, my love, I

snapped us painfully.

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this is a mess that is okay.

It's Okay.

Listen and heal. Listen and heal. Listen and heal.

i often want to delete facebook. just be devoted to my blog. who cares who i am?


unfortunately, i do.