i never thought material things would have such peaceful and creative influences. i count the things i am acquiring that i have wanted and hoped for and find them in front of me decorating my life in the way that i pictured. the best part is that they are manifesting due to my own hard work. maybe the important part is not that they are materialistic or even tangible but instead that they are a symbol of the effort and patience i have implemented and followed through with. it was me, with my own bare hands, my own patient mind and mouth, and the tips of my fingers every day.

here i am.

here are the things that i own...big, small, costly or not.

these are the fruits of my labor.

I read that the human brain spends 70% of the time putting together ideal scenarios based on existing  fragments and thoughts.


This blog helped me make sense of my life by spitting out nonsense for 5 years.

I will never get rid of it.