I'm hungry but I don't want to see faces
The outside life beckons me but breaking the judgement of first glances holds me behind a door
It's sad to say that my comfort zone of personality is one that appears wrong to others. They must wonder why I frown and put my head down but the truth is that I'm constantly having to put it on like a show....

But you know....they could just not give a damn.

My desire is to sit with a drink staring out with whatever look I want on my face. Whatever shape my face makes that feels comfortable, I want to look out at the world and contemplate even if I have nothing bad to ponder. Even if all my troubles have passed or if they are nothing when compared to those of others, let me sit and think...just think about the world but be in a space that all can share. Just let me be. Let me be let me be.

it takes more than creativity to be an artist
it takes refinement
frustration
ambidextrousness
failure
new perspectives
years
ears
pencils
technology
socialization
professors
adversity
romance
tragedy
conceptualization
throwing paint at walls
ripping down your house
performance
drugs
performance drugs
selling out
falling down
pain
accomplishment
incarceration
health
enlightenment
& following through.