I am tired of everything being so purposeful.

I WANT to look around and feel overwhelmed with emotion. I WANT to see a corner of a wall and stare into the paint chip while i listen to the note of a deeply overwhelming song and fall into it with all of my body.

What does it take to be continuously moved?

What lifestyle do I need to cultivate to capture that?

All i ever have is questions.

sit and listen to me, it's all i want in life.

an audience.

Great peace and Sweet blood in the sky

Lunar eclipse in Gemini is creating a magnificent pull between the sun and moon, leaving us in the middle. I feel the sigh of relief, the build up since july has finally let go.

Our relationship took a hit so hard, I thought it was done.

I

really

thought....

I don't know what I thought.

I'm sorry.

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Can we start again?

.................hanging my head in shame, I am humbled and human.

Passion overcame me, the creative drive has taken me over and

I will not let go now. We are taking a big breath like the visual

of a living breathing human chest seen from the side, vital and

you are the one who gives me air. I snapped in half, my love, I

snapped us painfully.

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this is a mess that is okay.

It's Okay.

Listen and heal. Listen and heal. Listen and heal.

i often want to delete facebook. just be devoted to my blog. who cares who i am?


unfortunately, i do.